One Year Ago Today

With yesterday being Sydney's "almost birthday" it seems appropriate that this post should follow today. One year ago today, on December 1, 2009, I found out I was expecting Savannah! Once I picked myself up off the floor and confirmed with not one, not two, but three pregnancy tests that I was in fact pregnant, I was immediately so excited! I felt an immediate peace from God about the whole pregnancy. The whole time I was pregnany with Sydney, I was afraid something would go wrong and I would miscarry. And just 6 weeks prior to conceiving Savannah, I did have a miscarriage. After Sydney was born, we prayed and prayed about if we should have another child, and got absolutely no response. For years. Nothing. Nada. Zip. So, we decided to try anyways, and we had the miscarriage. Well, after that, we decided not to try anymore. We thought we would wait a few months, until after the new year, and then decide, but we would probably be done. Well, after the new year, my parent's divorced and that was accompanied by lots of drama, so I know full well that we wouldn't have had another baby if we had waited until the new year. It was totally God's timing and perfect plan that we unexpectedly got pregnant with Savannah when we did. I knew, right from the beginning, that I wouldn't miscarry because I felt, deep down, that I knew that it's was God's perfect timing. I just hadn't been patient enough, I had wanted my answer "NOW!" (Now that's not to say that every miscarriage is because of not listening to God's timing, I just felt it was for me) She has been such a blessing, in a way I couldn't even imagine last December 1. I honestly wouldn't have even known I was pregnant except I gagged slightly on my vitamin, which I never do, and it just made me wonder.

Savannah has completely perfected our family. I love our little family of four, and I am in pure heaven having two daughters. I didn't even know what was missing! Thank you, God, for your divine planning and for my little family!